18 June 2008

It's a beautiful and cool morning. It's only in the low 60's, which is amazing considering the heat wave we suffered through last week. As my mother would say, it was a delightful change. I made myself go out and walk as soon as I woke up. I didn't want to. I hated every minute of it. Don't ask me why, I just didn't want to do it and it was hard. Am I happy I did and it's over with? Yes!

Thank you for all the comments about my decision to go to therapy. I try to be careful of what I put out there, because my daughter reads this blog, at least from time to time, and I want to be considerate of her feelings. Still, it is my blog, and I don't want all of you to think I have this idylic life and not know there's another side that has me near tears every day. No one's life is perfect, right? If only... I'm thankful for so many things. I'm an optimist. I'm naturally a happy person. I have a job I love. I have clients who really like me and seek me out, and I care very much about them. And we talk non-stop. Maybe the reason I'm so content with my solitary home life is because I get so much of my social life from work. Anyway, I have a home I love. I get pleasure out of the simple things...a cup of coffee, a bird on my feeder, time on my front porch or hammock, having lunch with my mom, talking to my sisters, having this blog and the friends I've made here, etc. It balances out the bad stuff. I'm trying to make my bad stuff better. I'm taking Emily's appointment tonight, as she's decided not to go. She says she's just being a normal teenager, and she may be right.

Well, that was a lot more than I planned to say. Time for work. Have a great day!

15 comments:

CRUSTYBEEF said...

Good for you!! Therapy is a beautiful thing!!
We all have our tears like you said and I admire you for being honest about it!!!

The fact that you're going is what matters, the fact that you're willing to go to assist you with Em or whatever challenge you may feel faced with is far more noble then those that scoff it and turn their noses up at the fact that it's therapy and that "there's no problem here."

I admire you.
Elizabeth
you're a wonderful mom!!!!!! You care and that's the most important thing in the entire world!!!

Ruth Hull Chatlien said...

You're right. No one's life is perfect. And I think people can really benefit from reading about other people's attempts to grow. So I'm glad you're posting about yours as much as you feel you can. And I also respect your decision to honor your daughter's privacy.

Mary said...

Therapy is a good thing. It certainly lifted me over a very rough part of my life. I changed - the situation didn't - and it was good.

I agree with Ruth's comment. Cheryl, you are a special lady to all of us.

fiwa said...

You have to find a balance that you're comfortable with on your blog - I can understand that.

I'm proud of you for listing the things you have to be thankful for. It doesn't make the problems go away, but it helps put them in perspective, huh?

I think you are making the right decision to go anyway - maybe just having someone to talk to will help.

Hey, I also have a book on CD recommendation for you - I know you like to listen to them too - Animal, Vegetable, Miracle by Barbara Kingsolver. It's not a novel - it's about a year in the life of her family where they try to grow their own food and opt out of buying commercial food. It is SO interesting and she reads it herself and has the most beautiful, cultured voice. It's like listening to a lullaby. I highly recommend it!

Sending you hugs -
fiwa

abbagirl74 said...

Hope you have a fantastic day Cheryl!

happyone said...

Delightful - a perfect word for this day.
I just can't imagine not enjoying a walk. :-)

Good luck at your therapy session tonight.

jenniferw said...

Cheryl, one of the reasons I love your blog is your simple yet heartfelt take on everyday life, and your evident gratefulness for your many blessings. No one thinks your life is without heartaches and tears, any more than our own are. But your optimism is refreshing and it always speaks to me. As for your daughter, the teenage years are difficult for us and for them. We're so close to the situation that sometimes it's difficult to judge what's really going on. I pray you and Emily find a common ground and that the therapist is able to help. Thanks for your honesty.

CJM-R said...

Em is right when she says she is a typical teen and typical teens drive typical parents crazy!

Enjoy your session tonight, it is so good to have a support person to help sort issues out. I know it helped me get through some tough times with the kids.

Thanks for sharing.

Portia said...

I agree. Therapy can be a great thing if you're open to it. It helps to have a good proactive therapist too, but that's probably a given. I was just catching up on your posts and chuckled when I read what you wrote about the sitemeters. When I first put mine up I checked it every day, and now I forget it's even there. I haven't looked at it in months. I hope the next walk you take is more enjoyable:)

Kelly Jene said...

I'm proud of you for doing something that could bring more joy to your life. It is a brave thing to do. You're a great mom and a wonderful friend. Hugs!

SOUL: said...

i've obviously missed something.. sorry i haven't been around much.

i sure have heard the normal teenager line alot myself lately tho--

i hope the therapy helps.

hugs-

Brad said...

You've got me thinking about getting some feeder. I'd love to put them on the porch but would be afraid Miss Lilly, the mighty hunter might take advantage. All have to figure something out.

I think therapy is a great idea. It's always helped me work through things. Kinda like have a friend to talk to who REALLY tells it like it is. Friends have a habit of couching things to spare your feelings and you can kinda take it coming from a nutrual party better.

Brad said...

I really need to start reading comments before sending - I'm a crappy typist and have to watch the keyboard - ooppps

Ginni Dee said...

We've been having beautiful weather too. It's been a bit cooler and the humidity is pretty much absent! I love sitting on the deck watching the birds and just enjoying our yard and garden view when it's like this. I just wish I had more time to sit out there!

I think you're doing the right thing for both you and Emily. I'm sure she is just a "normal" teenager, but sometimes that normalcy can drive you crazy!

simonsays said...

Cheryl,

Any of us that have/had children know what you are going through, you don't have to tell us. It is the hardest job, and 99.9999% of the time, totally thankless. Kids of this generation are particularly difficult. I feel for them, i feel for their parents. You are doing the right thing, going to counseling. And Emily probably is right, most likely, what you are dealing with is normal teenager stuff. I'm with ya girl, I have been through it all. But you are the best mother, and trust me, that WILL pay off. I know these things. Love ya. :)

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